Vs 38 "Then He said to them, "My soul is exceedingly sorrowful, even to death. Stay here and watch with Me."
Can you pause with me for a moment? Can you enter the scene with me? Let's walk together into the garden where Jesus who is 100% God and 100% human. He is about to experience a unimaginable trauma. He is about to get whipped all night long, His flesh is about to be torn, called everything but a child of God, and left alone. Jesus is aware of the cost of what He was about to do.
Jesus says to his disciples, "My soul is exceedingly sorrowful, even to death. " He didn't say just sorrowful. He said exceedingly sorrowful even to death. Jesus was sorrowful about his mission. He was about suffer mentally, physically, and emotionally. He was going to carry the sins and be momentarily separated from the Father. He was going to carry rape, domestic violence, shootings of our children, murder, racism, and all of injustice. Jesus asked the disciples to watch with him three times. This was important to Jesus. We can't ignore the fact they could not watch with him for a hour. They fell asleep.
As a facilitator, you are being asked to watch with Jesus. You are bearing witness to those who have been abused, neglected, hurting mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. Bearing witness to one's suffering is a difficult task. It requires fighting sleep, staying away, hearing the hurt and pain of others, and seeing and hearing the injustices. We can't separate ourselves from the disciples' disobedience. There are times when you and I will be tempted in the flesh to be passive, avoid, and be inactive.
Remember we are being invited by Jesus to watch with him. We are called to pray to Father with him for sin in the world. We are called as disciples to walk in dark places. We are not called to carry weight of the sins that have abused or traumatized people. Also we are not called to fix it. We are called to watch and to bear witness to the suffering as facilitators. We are not God. We are not Jesus. We are his son's and daughter called to watch and pray. We get to watch the Lord work in the lives of others.